Am I a lesbian?
Oct 20, 2020 17:57:05 GMT
Post by hj2393 on Oct 20, 2020 17:57:05 GMT
It feels weird posting this, but here we go. I am 23. I've never been on a date or kissed anybody because I have never let anybody get close to me, I think a lot of that is because I'm still not confident about my sexuality.
I know I am attracted to women. I cannot see myself in a relationship with a man. The thought of going on a romantic date with a man or kissing a man makes me uncomfortable. Sometimes I feel like I am sexually attracted to some men, but again I don't know if it's because I feel like that would make life easier and it's considered 'normal' in society.
I have never really had much interest in boys. When I was younger, I'd be obsessed with the women in cartoons/shows/bands; rather than thinking the boys were cute, I'd think the girls were pretty. At the time, I just thought I like them because they were girls like me. Through my teens, I realised that I had very little interest in being with a guy. I had crushes on girls I went to school with, but was never interested in any boys. While every other girl at school was obsessing over singers like Justin Bieber and One Direction, I liked Fifth Harmony and Paramore.
The signs are all there that I am solely interested in women, but I worry that if I say I'm a lesbian then somehow end up with a man (even though I cannot see that happening) that people will judge me.
I want to be sure for myself that I am a lesbian before I say anything to my family. I've told my mum that I'm interested in women and she was okay with it (it was a few years ago I told her this) but she asked if I was sure/is it a phase and if I was bisexual, which I think just maybe sparked a little thought that I could be wrong about liking women.
I have very bad anxiety, which I think is linked to OCD, and have been told I have an 'intolerance of uncertainty', which affects all aspects of my life, including this one. I feel like I need to be certain about who I am in order to accept who I am, but I don't feel certain about it and am questioning if I am even into women, even though it has been obvious throughout my life that I am.
Am I a lesbian? Am I bisexual? Do I have to label myself? Is it normal to feel this way?
I know I am attracted to women. I cannot see myself in a relationship with a man. The thought of going on a romantic date with a man or kissing a man makes me uncomfortable. Sometimes I feel like I am sexually attracted to some men, but again I don't know if it's because I feel like that would make life easier and it's considered 'normal' in society.
I have never really had much interest in boys. When I was younger, I'd be obsessed with the women in cartoons/shows/bands; rather than thinking the boys were cute, I'd think the girls were pretty. At the time, I just thought I like them because they were girls like me. Through my teens, I realised that I had very little interest in being with a guy. I had crushes on girls I went to school with, but was never interested in any boys. While every other girl at school was obsessing over singers like Justin Bieber and One Direction, I liked Fifth Harmony and Paramore.
The signs are all there that I am solely interested in women, but I worry that if I say I'm a lesbian then somehow end up with a man (even though I cannot see that happening) that people will judge me.
I want to be sure for myself that I am a lesbian before I say anything to my family. I've told my mum that I'm interested in women and she was okay with it (it was a few years ago I told her this) but she asked if I was sure/is it a phase and if I was bisexual, which I think just maybe sparked a little thought that I could be wrong about liking women.
I have very bad anxiety, which I think is linked to OCD, and have been told I have an 'intolerance of uncertainty', which affects all aspects of my life, including this one. I feel like I need to be certain about who I am in order to accept who I am, but I don't feel certain about it and am questioning if I am even into women, even though it has been obvious throughout my life that I am.
Am I a lesbian? Am I bisexual? Do I have to label myself? Is it normal to feel this way?
