Started dreaming about men and gay experiances.

I thought that I might start sharing some of the reasons why I’ve decided to come here. I originally came here because, like I’ve said before, I have started to question my own identity and was in need of help and advice about what to do.
Now I thought that one way to do this is to start sharing some of my personal thoughts, feelings and perceptions of all that’s been happening so that, if you are reading and responding to them, you could help me figure some of it out with me.

And although they may not be in chronological order I’ll put them down anyway for you to read.

I’ll start with something that’s only started quite recently.

I’ve always, as an adult, had some mild ‘fantasies’ like most other people, and although it’s nothing too obscene or intense in nature it’s quite normal to a certain degree.
I admit I do have some things that ‘interest’ me and arouse me, and I sometimes fantasise about them.

But I’ve noticed that in the last few months these fantasies, interests, etc have started to change.

It’s been mostly beautiful women that have sparked my imagination, both in pictures, thinking about them etc like most men.
But over the last few months I’ve been starting to think about men too, and I’m not entirely sure why. The daydreams are mostly the same to a certain degree but now there’s a part of me that’s beginning to wonder what it would be like to make out with a man.

I Sometimes think about big, strong muscular men like the Chippendales for example-well fit and muscular. 

I won't go into details for the sake of decency, and although I’m not into ‘strong’ stuff I find myself being attracted to the idea of being with one.
Simple things like cuddling, embracing, even kissing have started to enter my imagination and it’s actually starting to arouse me now.

I’ve even started to watch some videos online about it. Nothing too gratuitous or obscene mind you-just videos that show ‘techniques’ for male-on-male intimacy and I actually found it somewhat stimulating.
Like I said, the strange thing is it’s only in the last few months that this has started to happen and I feel so intrigued and curious as to why I'm finding it increasingly enjoyable and fascinating?