More exploration.
Jan 18, 2023 13:26:50 GMT
Post by james on Jan 18, 2023 13:26:50 GMT
As I’ve already mentioned before, I've been questioning myself for some time and amongst the many things that I’ve been working on is how to approach this and analyse this better.
I apologise if some of this I’ve already mentioned before in previous posts but I felt that I just wanted to start putting some of my own thoughts and experiences down SOMEWHERE even if no one responds to them directly.
I’ve been to two Pride events so far at two different locations in two different years.
I was very curious at first and was deeply intrigued by what that experience would be like but I was unsure of how anyone-especially my family- would feel about it so I faked a day of work and drove to it.
I’ve never been to one before and was unsure what it would be like but I was actually quite pleasantly surprised.
I watched the parade through the street (which was the first time I’ve ever actually seen one) and I saw all the flags and costumes and heard the loud music and cheering, and I actually quite enjoyed it, like any other street parade.
Afterwards I walked up to the large area where everyone was gathering and waited to enter and again to me it felt like just another large fair or carnival, with stalls and rainbow flags everywhere.
I saw pairs of women hugging and holding hands with each other and men walking around in drag all around me.
And yet what surprised me the most was how at ease and relaxed I felt about it all. I didn’t feel uncomfortable or unsure about any of it, I simply saw other human beings around me enjoying themselves.
The second time was a year later at a different event in a differant town. However, this time I mentioned this to my family in conversation. I was unsure how they would respond exactley so I told them that I went into town unaware that it was happening (even though I actually was aware of it and went there intentionally).
Thye seemed okay with it. They are a bit more conserved about this sort of thing then I am, they are not Rightwing but slightly more reserved then me.
I’ve also been to two different bars over the last year, again out of curiosity.
The first time I felt nervous and unsure and actually hesitated at the door trying to decide what to do. Eventually I just walked straight in, went to the bar and ordered a drink and went and sat in the corner.
It was pretty empty at the time but looking around I actually started to feel quite relaxed and comfortable after a while.
To me it just felt like a normal bar, no different to any other I’ve been in and I quite enjoyed it.
I’m thinking of doing this sort of thing from now on but apart from watching videos and reading resource materials I’m trying to think about how else to keep doing this and how to explore it further.
I apologise if some of this I’ve already mentioned before in previous posts but I felt that I just wanted to start putting some of my own thoughts and experiences down SOMEWHERE even if no one responds to them directly.
I’ve been to two Pride events so far at two different locations in two different years.
I was very curious at first and was deeply intrigued by what that experience would be like but I was unsure of how anyone-especially my family- would feel about it so I faked a day of work and drove to it.
I’ve never been to one before and was unsure what it would be like but I was actually quite pleasantly surprised.
I watched the parade through the street (which was the first time I’ve ever actually seen one) and I saw all the flags and costumes and heard the loud music and cheering, and I actually quite enjoyed it, like any other street parade.
Afterwards I walked up to the large area where everyone was gathering and waited to enter and again to me it felt like just another large fair or carnival, with stalls and rainbow flags everywhere.
I saw pairs of women hugging and holding hands with each other and men walking around in drag all around me.
And yet what surprised me the most was how at ease and relaxed I felt about it all. I didn’t feel uncomfortable or unsure about any of it, I simply saw other human beings around me enjoying themselves.
The second time was a year later at a different event in a differant town. However, this time I mentioned this to my family in conversation. I was unsure how they would respond exactley so I told them that I went into town unaware that it was happening (even though I actually was aware of it and went there intentionally).
Thye seemed okay with it. They are a bit more conserved about this sort of thing then I am, they are not Rightwing but slightly more reserved then me.
I’ve also been to two different bars over the last year, again out of curiosity.
The first time I felt nervous and unsure and actually hesitated at the door trying to decide what to do. Eventually I just walked straight in, went to the bar and ordered a drink and went and sat in the corner.
It was pretty empty at the time but looking around I actually started to feel quite relaxed and comfortable after a while.
To me it just felt like a normal bar, no different to any other I’ve been in and I quite enjoyed it.
I’m thinking of doing this sort of thing from now on but apart from watching videos and reading resource materials I’m trying to think about how else to keep doing this and how to explore it further.