Think i almost figured it out but I'd like outside opinion

Hi there!

Thanks for your post! Gender dysphoria is a very difficult thing to go through, especially when it feels like there may not be anyone who understands, or you feel comfortable talking to. But there are people out there who are willing and wanting to talk. It’s okay to not fully understand how you identify and I commend you for reaching out.

There are so many labels and identities to learn, it really is confusing to try to comprehend each different one. Sometimes, it’s best to just listen to your head and heart rather than trying to find ways to fit into the vast labels. Lots of LGBTQIA+ and even those outside of the community struggle with their body image. Gender dysphoria is something I too am familiar with. Having been born female but identifying as non-binary, I understand the struggle of not feeling masculine enough in certain clothes. Top surgery is a big decision that even I contemplate. It's worth researching if it’s something you’re interested in learning more about.

Fortunately, there are many ways you can work around top surgery if you aren’t ready or even decide it isn’t the option for you. Chest binding is one way to manage the non-surgery route. Whether it be wrapping your chest with TransTape or using a chest binder. However, I would advise if you decide to try them, follow the instructions and don’t leave them on for long periods of time as they can cause injury if not used properly.

You don’t say in your post how old you are, but I do see you said that you have been on this journey for around 7 years. That being said, there is a plethora of resources out there that can be helpful in your journey, and I am going to attach some here.

- Gendered Intelligence has lots of resources and information regarding community/public engagement. They work to increase people's understanding of gender diversity. Their vision is of a world where diverse gender expressions are visible and valued, and where trans, non-binary, gender diverse, and gender-questioning people live healthy, safe, and fulfilled lives. genderedintelligence.co.uk/index.html

- Switchboard is an LGBT+ helpline where there are representatives who are there for you to talk. There are many different reasons people call switchboard, whether it be for information about support groups for those struggling with gender identity or even asking for information on how to get to local gay pubs for someone with mobility issues. The best part, if you have phone anxiety they have an Instant Messaging system in the evenings. Their website is: switchboard.lgbt/ and their phone number is: 0300 300 0630.

- London Friend supports the health and mental well-being of those a part of the LGBT community in and around London. They offer counseling and support regarding a variety of topics. They also have some useful information and advice as well as LGBTQ+ resources. londonfriend.org.uk/

Listen to yourself, continue to learn, and understand how you identify. Your identity and feelings are valid, no matter if you fall into a specific label or not. Remember, you don’t need to try and fit into any certain label or box. Please do post again if you need further advice or resources!

Best,
stardust