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May 22, 2024 18:43:31 GMT
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Post by harleygirl on May 22, 2024 18:43:31 GMT
I feel like I'm not living the life that is truly me. I've been a woman loving woman since the first grade. But family and society until recently has kept me living a life I hate. I'm married to a man and have a son and grandbaby, but I've never truly been happy. I love the man I'm with but I don't know how to get out of it. I don't want to destroy him. He doesn't even understand that I love women and just thinks my past with women was a phase. I don't know what to do.
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Post by Saathi on May 23, 2024 9:41:01 GMT
Hello there, and thanks for your post. Sorry you are going through a difficult time and by just starting a conversation here about how you feel takes courage and is part of your 'journey'. Thank you and I am sure others will be able to relate. I'm sorry to read you have 'never been truly happy' and I am sure you are working towards the happiness you desire and have a right to have. From my own lived experience and working with many clients over the last 20 years, not living our authentic or 'true' lives can cause us trauma and make us feel unhappy and often we can experience shame and uncertainty. Sometimes society, community and family make living our authentic lives even more difficult. As I get older I realise I have a right to experience joy and live my true life, which I try to do safely. Writing and Talking about how we feel has value and allows us to unpack how we are feeling. I'm not sure where you are in the world but is there someone you can talk to (a help line, a counsellor, therapist), so you can have a non-judgmental, private and confidential conversation? Talking to others and opening up can take time to build trust and something that can work, when you are ready to so. Maybe taking small steps to what you would like to achieve; this could be connecting with others, talking, writing, reading and watching tv and films you can relate to? Here are some links below that may be useful: www.lgbthero.org.uk/find-supportwww.lgbthero.org.uk/Pages/Events/Best wishes and do stay in touch
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