I think I might be trans help me out please
Mar 30, 2020 0:02:22 GMT
Post by chipshop10 on Mar 30, 2020 0:02:22 GMT
Hello
My name is Andrew and I’m a 20 year old man. I have been talking to my friend about this a lot recently (she is a lesbian, so you know not the same thing but still under the LGBT banner) and she suggested I talk to people who would be more knowledgeable on this part of the LGBT and who could give more helpful opinions, thoughts and advice than she could.
So, I feel like and I am transgender person but I’m just worried that it could just be a phase because one moment I’m all in and so so sure that this is me then the next I’m like hmm really though. This scares me because whenever I think about it all it does is bring me happiness and feel right you know. At the end of the day really all I want is for it to be real and who I am because honestly, I love the idea and the way it makes me feel. But, sometimes I’m also just not fully sure and being a very self-doubting person doesn’t help really. This isn’t the first time I’ve questioned myself but the first time I’ve really taken notice. All previous times I questioned myself, I’ve just passed it off as nothing and silly but now I just can’t seem to stop thinking about the idea of being transgender.
The reason the questioning started again was in a serious tone and meaning I almost said to my mum “this is why I want to be a woman” what shocked me because it wasn’t a joke and would’ve come out of nowhere and why I’ve started questioning my gender identity properly for the past month.
This got me thinking about stuff then I started to put some pieces together about why I might feel this way. For example, when I was young, and I played with a friend and she made me dress as a girl I said I hated it but secretly I kind of liked it. I’ve never really felt/acted super masculine or been a big fan of the it either really. In comparison to what’s to come these are quite a small little thing. The other things that have got me questioning myself are a little less shall we say subtle.
I play a decent amount of video games and when I’m able to make my own character I always make them woman for the reason of that when I play as woman in games I feel way more connected to them more and project myself onto them what I can’t do when I play as a male character what I just hate doing really.
And one of the two arguably the least subtle part is that when I have fantasies/dreams or whatever you want to call them a lot of the times in them I end up revealing to my friends that this entire time I’ve secretly been a woman called Jessica with long black hair with purple highlights in disguise just pretending to be a man because its quote on quote ‘more socially normal’ if you will. Because the whole hair look is how I pictured myself/her in these dreams or fantasies I decided to dye my hair black the other day and now all I can think when I look in the mirror is that my hair NEEDS to be longer as I don’t look how I should because I don’t look like that version of me.
Recently I find myself warming a lot more to the idea of wearing women’s clothes for example like a pair of leggings with a skirt out and about to help me feel more feminine and like a woman rather than a man. And even the idea of going to a pride event with my friend doesn’t seem stupid to me anymore but something that kind of sounds fun and I’m down for. Finally, the thought of getting a sex change is something that I’ve never been against ever for as long as I can remember really. Even now in my unsure state the idea of getting surgery too not just identify as and dress as a woman but to become and live as one still doesn’t seem wrong to me.
So yeah, I think that is everything I wanted to say so if you don’t mind me asking what do you think? Am I just making connections what aren’t there or is this who I am? Thanks in advance for the feedback. 😊
My name is Andrew and I’m a 20 year old man. I have been talking to my friend about this a lot recently (she is a lesbian, so you know not the same thing but still under the LGBT banner) and she suggested I talk to people who would be more knowledgeable on this part of the LGBT and who could give more helpful opinions, thoughts and advice than she could.
So, I feel like and I am transgender person but I’m just worried that it could just be a phase because one moment I’m all in and so so sure that this is me then the next I’m like hmm really though. This scares me because whenever I think about it all it does is bring me happiness and feel right you know. At the end of the day really all I want is for it to be real and who I am because honestly, I love the idea and the way it makes me feel. But, sometimes I’m also just not fully sure and being a very self-doubting person doesn’t help really. This isn’t the first time I’ve questioned myself but the first time I’ve really taken notice. All previous times I questioned myself, I’ve just passed it off as nothing and silly but now I just can’t seem to stop thinking about the idea of being transgender.
The reason the questioning started again was in a serious tone and meaning I almost said to my mum “this is why I want to be a woman” what shocked me because it wasn’t a joke and would’ve come out of nowhere and why I’ve started questioning my gender identity properly for the past month.
This got me thinking about stuff then I started to put some pieces together about why I might feel this way. For example, when I was young, and I played with a friend and she made me dress as a girl I said I hated it but secretly I kind of liked it. I’ve never really felt/acted super masculine or been a big fan of the it either really. In comparison to what’s to come these are quite a small little thing. The other things that have got me questioning myself are a little less shall we say subtle.
I play a decent amount of video games and when I’m able to make my own character I always make them woman for the reason of that when I play as woman in games I feel way more connected to them more and project myself onto them what I can’t do when I play as a male character what I just hate doing really.
And one of the two arguably the least subtle part is that when I have fantasies/dreams or whatever you want to call them a lot of the times in them I end up revealing to my friends that this entire time I’ve secretly been a woman called Jessica with long black hair with purple highlights in disguise just pretending to be a man because its quote on quote ‘more socially normal’ if you will. Because the whole hair look is how I pictured myself/her in these dreams or fantasies I decided to dye my hair black the other day and now all I can think when I look in the mirror is that my hair NEEDS to be longer as I don’t look how I should because I don’t look like that version of me.
Recently I find myself warming a lot more to the idea of wearing women’s clothes for example like a pair of leggings with a skirt out and about to help me feel more feminine and like a woman rather than a man. And even the idea of going to a pride event with my friend doesn’t seem stupid to me anymore but something that kind of sounds fun and I’m down for. Finally, the thought of getting a sex change is something that I’ve never been against ever for as long as I can remember really. Even now in my unsure state the idea of getting surgery too not just identify as and dress as a woman but to become and live as one still doesn’t seem wrong to me.
So yeah, I think that is everything I wanted to say so if you don’t mind me asking what do you think? Am I just making connections what aren’t there or is this who I am? Thanks in advance for the feedback. 😊
