Post by Martin on Jul 28, 2020 17:49:33 GMT
Although married I always felt an attraction to certain men but didn’t think much of it. Felt it was normal for everyone. But one day i was swimming and left the pool almost the same time as another guy. I looked towards this guy and felt an instant sexual attraction to him. He was a youngish toned lad, obviously very wet and wearing clinging white shorts! I got an immediate erection so I had to go back into the pool and work this out. The lad was beautiful and I knew I was was wanting him. But I was with my wife! My relationship was at the end anyway and I waited until divorced to explore my feelings. I didn’t really know where to go but eventually joined gaydar. After several failed attempts I met a very nice man. We had a drink and he invited me back to his flat. I was very very nervous but knew I needed to know! Was I gay? After a chat he started to come onto me. We sat next to each other and he touched my legs. OMG!! I was shaking. But really wanted this. I then asked if I could kiss him. First time I had kissed a man. Feeling his tongue, lips against mine and a beard was weird at first but I realised it also felt natural. What happened after was for me extraordinary! We stripped down naked and we got very intimate. I came twice and it was just amazing. On leaving him he said to me, once you have been with a man you can never go back. And he was absolutely spot on. I’ve since been with several men, then decided to come out to several people, and am now very happy in my “gay” skin, simply love being intimate with guys. It’s been difficult in lockdown, I’m careful anyway but admit I did slip up once when I met a guy but he became part of my bubble as he is a regular sexual partner for me now. Gay, proud and happy!
