Planning on coming out... at 26
Oct 7, 2020 0:14:13 GMT
Post by ld123 on Oct 7, 2020 0:14:13 GMT
Hey guys,
So...where to begin? I'm 26 and have thought I am gay since at least 14 years old. I went to an all boys school so coming out sadly wasn't really an option then, even in todays day and age. After school I wanted to join the forces so again I thought better of it. Long story short the whole army thing didn't work out so I went to college. During this time I hooked up with a couple of guys and it felt like the most natural thing in the world, it was great.
Then I landed an awesome job whilst at college and dropped my studies as I felt I didn't need them and that's where it went down hill. I stopped hooking up and concentrated on professional life trying to make it but life has a funny way of changing your planned path. I still lived with my family then and shortly after we all moved due to personal reasons to a totally different part of the country. I ended up retreating into the closet big time, as we moved from a city to the sticks. I started another career that I am excelling at but due to being so far in the closet its sooo difficult to come out.
I've recently had a really big health issue that's now resolved, but has given me some perspective on the world and my life. Whilst in the closet I tried to have a couple of hetero relationships to keep up appearances and maybe even convince myself that I am at least bi, or my previous encounters were just the dreaded 'phase'. Trouble is whenever they went anywhere it felt mechanical and unnatural and nothing like I had previously felt, sure I had feelings but realise now they were purely platonic.
After gaining this perspective, I think I am willing to live my best life and I am hoping that will start tomorrow (technically today now). I am taking a long car trip with my best friend to pick up a car, and I know she is accepting and just a really nice person. I am also hoping to come out to my mum in the next couple of weeks who again, I know is a liberal and accepting person and looking back on it I'm not sure why I hadn't done previously. Like, she's found browser history when I was a teen and caught me with someone when I was 16 so I'm sure deep down she knows. My dads side of the family are probably going to be nowhere near as accepting but I suppose that's just tough, if they can't love and accept me for who I am then its their loss.
My only concerns are actually colleagues, some of whom I know will be supportive, some will be indifferent and others will be arses. I'm certain I will loose a few good workmates, which strangely I care more about than one side of my family. Ah!, I don't know its got to happen at some point right?
Sorry for the rambling post, it's just liberating to write this stuff down, even if it is anonymously to strangers over the internet. This looks like a supportive place to be at the minute, thanks for listening/reading. I'm looking forward to what the future brings
So...where to begin? I'm 26 and have thought I am gay since at least 14 years old. I went to an all boys school so coming out sadly wasn't really an option then, even in todays day and age. After school I wanted to join the forces so again I thought better of it. Long story short the whole army thing didn't work out so I went to college. During this time I hooked up with a couple of guys and it felt like the most natural thing in the world, it was great.
Then I landed an awesome job whilst at college and dropped my studies as I felt I didn't need them and that's where it went down hill. I stopped hooking up and concentrated on professional life trying to make it but life has a funny way of changing your planned path. I still lived with my family then and shortly after we all moved due to personal reasons to a totally different part of the country. I ended up retreating into the closet big time, as we moved from a city to the sticks. I started another career that I am excelling at but due to being so far in the closet its sooo difficult to come out.
I've recently had a really big health issue that's now resolved, but has given me some perspective on the world and my life. Whilst in the closet I tried to have a couple of hetero relationships to keep up appearances and maybe even convince myself that I am at least bi, or my previous encounters were just the dreaded 'phase'. Trouble is whenever they went anywhere it felt mechanical and unnatural and nothing like I had previously felt, sure I had feelings but realise now they were purely platonic.
After gaining this perspective, I think I am willing to live my best life and I am hoping that will start tomorrow (technically today now). I am taking a long car trip with my best friend to pick up a car, and I know she is accepting and just a really nice person. I am also hoping to come out to my mum in the next couple of weeks who again, I know is a liberal and accepting person and looking back on it I'm not sure why I hadn't done previously. Like, she's found browser history when I was a teen and caught me with someone when I was 16 so I'm sure deep down she knows. My dads side of the family are probably going to be nowhere near as accepting but I suppose that's just tough, if they can't love and accept me for who I am then its their loss.
My only concerns are actually colleagues, some of whom I know will be supportive, some will be indifferent and others will be arses. I'm certain I will loose a few good workmates, which strangely I care more about than one side of my family. Ah!, I don't know its got to happen at some point right?
Sorry for the rambling post, it's just liberating to write this stuff down, even if it is anonymously to strangers over the internet. This looks like a supportive place to be at the minute, thanks for listening/reading. I'm looking forward to what the future brings
