Lately ive been depressed and even thought of taking my own life. Statistics show that the gay community is more depressed, unhappy and suicidal than ever. As part of my journey to happiness again I'm on a mission to help change it, Ditch the apps, meet face to face, connect and become a community again. Please follow my own personal journey and also much more to come. Please watch, like, follow, share and let's bring change. It used to be straights against gays and now it's gays against gays, this includes the whole LGBTQI community.
I'm so sorry to hear that you've been thinking of taking your own life recently. I've also felt suicidal at points in my own life so I can relate. Please know that you're not alone and that there are places out there that can help.
If at any point you feel like you are at risk of harming yourself, please dial 999 and ask for an ambulance. They will take you somewhere safe where people can help. You can also go into any Accident and Emergency department and let them know how you're feeling.
In addition to being able to call the emergency services, there are other support services you can call. I'm going to list some of them below. All of them are confidential and some are specialists in LGBTQ+ issues:
Samaritans: 116 123 - available to listen and talk, non-judgementally about anything you want. You don't need to be suicidal to call. Open 24/7, 365 days a year.
Switchboard: 0300 330 0630 from 10am - 10pm - An LGBTQ+ helpline staffed by queer volunteers offering advice and a friendly ear about anything and everything you want to talk about like sexuality, gender identity, mental health etc. They also intermittently run a web chat service if that's more your thing: switchboard.lgbt/
LGBT Foundation: 0345 3 30 30 30 - Large LGBTQ+ charity based in Manchester which also runs a helpline for queer people.
You don't mention whether you've got a support network around you but if it might also be a good idea to seek some help from friends and family, if possible. Talking to someone else about how you're feeling can be the beginning of a positive dialogue which helps you process your own thoughts, and maybe results in more support.
I hope you've found the above helpful. If you have any more questions or want anything clarified then please do post again. And feel free to let us know how you're getting along.