Post by spacey on Jun 29, 2021 17:34:44 GMT
warning: this gets a little nsfw
hi, so im new here, but im afab genderfluid and ive been identifying as asexual for a few years now (im attracted to women romantically). i went through trauma involving sex when i was younger, so it repulses me. and ive never been interested in sex, or felt sexual attraction. ive never even thought about doing it, keep that in mind.
i have a girlfriend, who told me she feels like she's asexual too, and we've both been happy and comfortable without sex.
but today, i had a dream. (this is all a dream) it was me and my girlfriend, and we were kissing on a bed and then out of nowhere she just takes her shirt off. and im confused like- wait i don't want to do this.. right? and she's like, "it's okay if you don't want to" but- i decide to anyway. it was very slow and mostly romantic, and tbh it felt like a sex scene in a PG-13 movie, but it was still sex..
so im very confused. what does this mean? am i not asexual..? do i just- want to do sexual things but romantically? idk, ive always been afraid of sex but i enjoyed it in my dream and i don't know why. i doubt i would ever enjoy it in real life, im sure that id be too afraid to even.. do it. but for some reason, i remember exactly how i felt in the dream and it was a way ive never felt before (i think i was turned on?). so it was very odd and confusing to me and i felt a little uncomfortable, because i didn't actually feel that way, i just remember feeling that way?? im not sure how to explain it. but im just confused about what this means, and why dream me enjoyed it and why i even dreamed about it. so if you have any opinions or anything, please say them
hi, so im new here, but im afab genderfluid and ive been identifying as asexual for a few years now (im attracted to women romantically). i went through trauma involving sex when i was younger, so it repulses me. and ive never been interested in sex, or felt sexual attraction. ive never even thought about doing it, keep that in mind.
i have a girlfriend, who told me she feels like she's asexual too, and we've both been happy and comfortable without sex.
but today, i had a dream. (this is all a dream) it was me and my girlfriend, and we were kissing on a bed and then out of nowhere she just takes her shirt off. and im confused like- wait i don't want to do this.. right? and she's like, "it's okay if you don't want to" but- i decide to anyway. it was very slow and mostly romantic, and tbh it felt like a sex scene in a PG-13 movie, but it was still sex..
so im very confused. what does this mean? am i not asexual..? do i just- want to do sexual things but romantically? idk, ive always been afraid of sex but i enjoyed it in my dream and i don't know why. i doubt i would ever enjoy it in real life, im sure that id be too afraid to even.. do it. but for some reason, i remember exactly how i felt in the dream and it was a way ive never felt before (i think i was turned on?). so it was very odd and confusing to me and i felt a little uncomfortable, because i didn't actually feel that way, i just remember feeling that way?? im not sure how to explain it. but im just confused about what this means, and why dream me enjoyed it and why i even dreamed about it. so if you have any opinions or anything, please say them
