HI a bit of history
Jul 8, 2021 9:29:37 GMT
Post by bigbadbazza on Jul 8, 2021 9:29:37 GMT
Hi i was born in 1961 life growing up was dreamy then when I was 12/13 I started cross dressing and to feed my desire to dress i would pilfer girls clothes from washing lines and when dressed i felt at one with myself but around ate 14/15 it was brought to an abrupt end by an off duty police man walking his dog around that time was hard belittlement I shut myself away in my own mind,
But once I had fled the nest I started cross dressing again, my 20's was a awkward time in my life trying to live life as one should but feeling out of place, I've dated women but nothing ever flourished into any long term relationship, in my 30's plodding along as I'd dun in my 20's but when I was 38 I was dyexnosed with klinefelter's syndrome 47xxy and was proscribed testosterone HRT at first things where ok kind of but on my third year of 250mgs of Sustanon every 14 days things altered the way I felt about myself I started questioning my own gender my cross dressing was out of control etc to put it bluntly one go's through purity from age12 to around 21 i had just dun it in almost three years 😳 all those sensations emotions And so on,
My first time at charring cross GID they just put me on another HRT testosterone many years later they tell me I'm a perfect candidate to become a woman 🙄 as much as that made me feel good about myself I've never truly felt100 % one or the other another reason for saying I'm 50/50 , yes I cross dress and have desires forthe female form in some way gender dysphagia anyway they proscribed me estrogen 2mgs daily and have now been on estrogen for roughly 4 years but in the last 3 years I've been fantasising about being with another male, my first attempt was with a dildo a friend landed me "all those years around gay friends and I never felt that way inclined' at life a bitch 🤣
Anyhow as nice as the dildo was to use i still craved to fiscal attention of being with another guy I kind of fulfilled that craving but when it came do to him performing he was unable to perform 😕 so of course I back to fantasising and the last 16 months thats all I've dun with the help of dildo's thing is I want to be with a real man affectionately you'd think that's easy living in Brighton but when you've spent most of your life hiding away not truly being yourself in public, yes I came out as a cross dresser many years back and as good as that felt it also lost me a lot of friends so I guess I just reverted back into my own bobble but I've kind of made up my mind once covid is out of the way I need to start meating people and fulfil my desires and fantasies because I'm a firm believer if you feel strongly about something you should at lest partisate to fully get to grips with what you fantasies about for my own sanity,
Sins being dyexnosed with klinefelter's life has been a very big learning curve of feelings and emotions and I can no longer hid in the shadows.
But once I had fled the nest I started cross dressing again, my 20's was a awkward time in my life trying to live life as one should but feeling out of place, I've dated women but nothing ever flourished into any long term relationship, in my 30's plodding along as I'd dun in my 20's but when I was 38 I was dyexnosed with klinefelter's syndrome 47xxy and was proscribed testosterone HRT at first things where ok kind of but on my third year of 250mgs of Sustanon every 14 days things altered the way I felt about myself I started questioning my own gender my cross dressing was out of control etc to put it bluntly one go's through purity from age12 to around 21 i had just dun it in almost three years 😳 all those sensations emotions And so on,
My first time at charring cross GID they just put me on another HRT testosterone many years later they tell me I'm a perfect candidate to become a woman 🙄 as much as that made me feel good about myself I've never truly felt100 % one or the other another reason for saying I'm 50/50 , yes I cross dress and have desires forthe female form in some way gender dysphagia anyway they proscribed me estrogen 2mgs daily and have now been on estrogen for roughly 4 years but in the last 3 years I've been fantasising about being with another male, my first attempt was with a dildo a friend landed me "all those years around gay friends and I never felt that way inclined' at life a bitch 🤣
Anyhow as nice as the dildo was to use i still craved to fiscal attention of being with another guy I kind of fulfilled that craving but when it came do to him performing he was unable to perform 😕 so of course I back to fantasising and the last 16 months thats all I've dun with the help of dildo's thing is I want to be with a real man affectionately you'd think that's easy living in Brighton but when you've spent most of your life hiding away not truly being yourself in public, yes I came out as a cross dresser many years back and as good as that felt it also lost me a lot of friends so I guess I just reverted back into my own bobble but I've kind of made up my mind once covid is out of the way I need to start meating people and fulfil my desires and fantasies because I'm a firm believer if you feel strongly about something you should at lest partisate to fully get to grips with what you fantasies about for my own sanity,
Sins being dyexnosed with klinefelter's life has been a very big learning curve of feelings and emotions and I can no longer hid in the shadows.
