As good as it get's???
Aug 15, 2021 1:50:19 GMT
Post by Deleted on Aug 15, 2021 1:50:19 GMT
In March this year I entered my first same sex relationship with a woman. I told her the truth that I hadn't spoken to anyone about my feelings towards women and she said there was no pressure to come out to anyone. Ultimately there was some pressure and I then told my family and friends but I decided not to tell my kids and I told her my reasons and she understood and again told me there was no pressure. We discussed the future, getting engaged and all the fun things about our life together but I made it clear that I didn't see us being engaged/married within the next year or so. Within a few weeks she bought me an engagement ring and I freaked out and we stopped talking for a week. She said sorry for going against my wishes. When we went to collect my ring (to be stored away safely) and she wanted to try on rings for herself. She bought herself a ring as I was unable to cover the cost. Again, whilst in the shop I tried to get her to wait but she didn't listen. So earlier this week I ended things between us and she flipped out. She came to my home demanding that I pay her the money for the rings as I ended things. I offered to pay for the ring for her but she didn't accept that. She pushed her way into my home and refused to leave. She started to mock my illness and I then snapped and told her to f*** right off and I didn't need to listen to sh*t in my own home. When she finally left my house and managed to lock my front door and she started kicking my door, banging on my windows and shouting thru the windows, calling me a closet lesbian and everyone will know about me. She actually called the police and complained that I was refusing to return her phone to her (which she gifted to me months ago) but she hung up on them but they heard me screaming for her to leave me house.
The Police arrived and took her into their car and questioned her. All the time, I'm sitting in my bedroom, door closed, crying and shaking. The Police chapped my door and asked me to tell them my side of the story. They believed me and told me they could charge her with breach of the peace. They asked me if the relationship was over and I said yes and they would inform her that she should never come to my house or contact me or my family. They actually told me that she grassed herself in, and I was not in trouble and I had every right to scream and use expletives towards someone who is threating me in my own home.
I honestly did not want this to happen and I wonder if her words were true that I don't know the meaning of love or would ever be in a loving relationship? She actually told me that if it didn't work out with her I should remain single forever as nobody would tolerate me! Is this as good as it get's?
At the minute I'm confused, scared and feel very alone. Any advise is appreciated.
The Police arrived and took her into their car and questioned her. All the time, I'm sitting in my bedroom, door closed, crying and shaking. The Police chapped my door and asked me to tell them my side of the story. They believed me and told me they could charge her with breach of the peace. They asked me if the relationship was over and I said yes and they would inform her that she should never come to my house or contact me or my family. They actually told me that she grassed herself in, and I was not in trouble and I had every right to scream and use expletives towards someone who is threating me in my own home.
I honestly did not want this to happen and I wonder if her words were true that I don't know the meaning of love or would ever be in a loving relationship? She actually told me that if it didn't work out with her I should remain single forever as nobody would tolerate me! Is this as good as it get's?
At the minute I'm confused, scared and feel very alone. Any advise is appreciated.
