Post by brandon on Sept 14, 2021 16:03:25 GMT
I've been dealing with alot just like many of you and I'm was in a situation where I'm in a codependent relationship with my mother and it's difficult sometimes but I'm working my way out of this situation so I can get my own place and transportation.So to get into the real stuff I came out to my mother maybe 2 years ago and she did not take it seriously or well!kinda like a mixture anger and confusing! So once I saw how her whole demeanor had shifted towards me I tried to put my feelings to the side just to make her feel better! So I told her I'm not bisexual and I'm straight because I didn't wanna be in a war zone anymore! After I told her that she went back to normal after a couple of months but I knew I was absolutely gay the whole time and that really sucks and it put me back in a confusing and troubled state of mind. I was very sad and disappointed with how she responded to me coming out! So fast forward to right now! We haven't been on real good terms cause I'm still working on healing myself from the past 2 years of turmoil she put me through! Here recently we have been real dived from one another! She likes to try and test me by talking about gay people in a negative manner to stir up those turmoil feelings that she put me through last year and the year before that but I'm not the same person from last year or the year before that I've worked on my self so much this year and I've be on my spiritual journey and everything! I've gathered some much strength I'm not the weak and individual who she thought saw previously so now we're really not getting along right now! We grow up in a Christian background so she loves to use that's to her ability to judge me and try to prove and placed guilt on me you can imagine all the things she said about that! But I'm not letting anybody control me or my energy! I'm keep my energy and I'm setting up my boundaries! so now that I know it's definitely time to figure out how to move away from this toxic situation and move out as soon as possible! I'm blessed that I know now that I'm never alone because I have my spiritual team looking out for me!So anybody who feels alone right now just know you're never alone because I'm sending you love and light and your spirit angels are to!! So we will get through this and become better from it ! And just a little side note this is not me talking bad about my mom I'm just expressing my feelings! She's a great mother I appreciate all the things that she's done for me but I'm not taking the disrespect anymore I'm not putting my feelings to the side just to make her feel better anymore! I'm stepping in to my power and I'm gonna be who I've always known myself to be!! Sorry for any punctuation errors I'm just venting and expressing myself thank you.
