Confusion

I (29) identify as straight, despite some curiosity as a teen. I’m attracted to women particularly by their most feminine features. However, if I take cocaine, for the duration it takes effect my sexuality takes a full 180. Whilst under the influence I am only aroused by men. Particularly muscular, dominant men - a total change of “role” to passive and submissive. I even get the strong urge to dress up and wear make up. The feelings, although short term and temporary, are genuine and intense. I’d love to know if anyone (or someone you know) has felt this way? I am keen to act on these feelings but do not want to hurt anyone as I may be less receptive and passionate when sober.