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Post by simonsays on Mar 18, 2019 2:35:42 GMT
Hi,
I was diagnosed with HIV two weeks ago and I don't really know what to do. After I got my results the nurse gave me leaflets about HIV-undetectable and peer-support groups in London but I don't think I'm ready to talk with people face to face.
Right now I feel dirty and ashamed. I feel I've let the team down and I'm a bad gay. I'm feeling down right now and I just want to get drunk and forget this has happened.
Any advice.
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Post by Piltover on Mar 18, 2019 11:30:43 GMT
Hi Simon, Thanks so much for your message and reaching out to us. I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. People tend not to talk as much about the impact of a new diagnosis on your mental health, but it's probably the most important impact now that treatment for the virus is so good. I'm not living with HIV but I've got a lot of friends that are. I think most of them felt like you at first (unwarranted shame and guilt), but given some time and support they're much happier now. You're absolutely not a 'bad gay' for living with HIV, and you've let no-one down, it doesn't matter how it was transmitted or where. Gay men (I will assume for time-being that you identify as male based on your forum handle) are at higher risk of transmitting the virus and that's not anyone's fault. Rather, you just happen in a high risk group. I know these words probably aren't that comforting and you're going to need to time to process what's happened, but we're here to tell you that you're not to blame, and there are lots of places you can get help. Below I'm going to link to some resources / organisations that I think can help based what you've said above. Hopefully one of them will be a good fit. - Firstly, you mention that you've seen an nurse and received a diagnosis, but not that you're receiving further medical care. Terrence Higgins Trust is an HIV charity that has a tonne of useful resources about where you can get treatment and what that looks like: www.tht.org.uk/hiv-and-sexual-health/being-diagnosed-hiv/newly-diagnosed- GMFA is another HIV charity that provides information to men living with HIV. Here's it's newly diagnosed information pages are here: www.gmfa.org.uk/Pages/Category/newly-diagnosed and here's a list of HIV support services www.gmfa.org.uk/prevention-support-services. - If you want to talk but aren't ready to go to a group, try calling THT Direct. It's totally okay to process this in your own way, and maybe this would work out better for you right now? THT direct is THT's support line and I'm sure someone would be glad to talk to you. Call them on 0808 802 1221, 10am - 8pm, Mon-Fri. You could also try calling Switchboard, which is an LGBTQ+ helpline on 0300 330 0630, 10am - 10pm. - Don't want to call either? No worries! You can also contact Switchboard by web chat or email. Details here: switchboard.lgbt/- Another alternative to peer support is one-to-one support. These are personal sessions with a counsellor and might be easier for you than talking in a group right now. Terrence Higgins Trust, Positive East, and London Friend all offer counselling to LGBTQ+ people in the London area. THT and PE will be especially well equipped to help you come to terms with your diagnosis: www.tht.org.uk/our-services/head-office/connect-counselling/individual-counsellingwww.positiveeast.org.uk/our-services/counselling/londonfriend.org.uk/get-support/counselling/#.XI9-0iL7SM8- If you don't feel like you're ready for support groups or group work, then it's important that you're practicing good self-care in the meantime. Try reading this OutLife guide on maintaining your mental health: www.outlife.org.uk/7-ways-to-improve-your-mental-health. There's plenty more where all this came from as there's a lot of support out there in London for men living with HIV. Above all, make sure that you're talking to people about how you're feeling. Of course, it's totally up to you when, or if you disclose your status to anyone else, but try and let someone know if you're struggling mentally. If you've got any questions then please post again and we'll see if we can help. Take care of yourself. Justin
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Post by eric1990 on Mar 25, 2019 1:47:52 GMT
I know someone who is living with HIV. He felt the same way as you. But after doing some peer support groups he's in a better place. I hope you get the support you need. x
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Post by simonsays on Apr 14, 2019 22:36:48 GMT
Hi again.
Sorry it's taken me so long to reply. It's been nearly a month since I came here. Thank you Justin for your advice. I called THT Direct and they put me in contact with some peer-support services. I'm trying to take things slowly but I feel much better than I did a month ago. I've started my medication and on my way to being undetectable. Right now that's all I want to do and once I become undetectable then I will look at what happens next.
Thanks again for your support.
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Post by Piltover on Apr 15, 2019 10:11:39 GMT
Hi Simon, This is fantastic news I'm so glad that THT Direct were able to help. It's a great charity. Take things at your own pace, I think it's really wise of you to do things when you feel ready for them. If you've ever got any questions about a next-step, then don't hesitate to post here and we'll get back to you.
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Post by eddie1990 on Mar 4, 2022 8:21:18 GMT
Hi
I was Raped in prison many times I am HIV positive feel dirty and disgusting never told anyone aboat it before feel ashamed
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Post by liammurphy on Mar 4, 2022 14:03:44 GMT
Hi Eddie. Thank you getting in touch with us in the forums and sharing your story. I'd like to direct you to Positively UK. They run excellent support groups and workshops about dealing with your diagnosis. Their website also has lots of other information: www.positivelyuk.orgI also recommend you get in touch with Survivors UK. They help people who have experienced sexual assault. Their website: www.survivorsuk.orgI hope some of this helps. Please do post on the forums again if you need more information. Thank you, Liam LGBT HERO
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