Post by findingme on Jul 17, 2022 21:56:35 GMT
Please excuse any miscommunications or mistakes in language! I am here to learn and know that I am very new to this. Please correct me and so I can be enlightened.
I'm 26 and recently left my husband (for unrelated reasons I'd rather not get into). I have a beautiful baby girl who is my whole world and its just me and her ❤️ I wouldn't change a thing.
I've lost a lot of trust in the opposite sex due to past experience and of course I know this is personal to me and nothing to do with the other gender (something that I am working on).
I've started to wonder if I was ever even straight to begin with as the idea of sex has always been like "eating your vegetables" something you have to do in order to not be alone. In the past I haven't really ever been given much of a choice. Although I also find it incredibly painful due to medical issues and past.
When I've heard people's coming out stories they often say "I always knew" and that they were born this way. I respect and love this but its making me confused about how I feel?
I have only ever looked at men this way and am attracted to them initially but after this point I'm not so sure? Women are so beautiful and sensual to me that I feel I would be more sexually attracted to them but this thought had only just occurred to me in the last few months.
Is it possible that I am a lesbian? Bisexual? Or other? Or am I just so hurt from my past that I'm creating some sort of trauma response?
I have no interest in being in any kind or relationship at the moment as my focus is on my baby and finding out who I am and will be for the foreseeable future.
Does anyone out there related to any of this or can any personal experiences enlighten me? Did you always know?
Is there a way I can find out without putting myself out into the world (something I'm not nearly ready to do).
I've never been with a woman. I love and admire the entire LGBTQ+ community and would never be ashamed of my sexuality and I feel my friends and family would be very supportive of any choices I make in this regard (with a few exceptions of course). But I don't think that there's any shame or guilt holding me back here?
Right now it feels like im trying to think through the thickest fog and theres no clear path.
Maybe I'm just broken.
I'm 26 and recently left my husband (for unrelated reasons I'd rather not get into). I have a beautiful baby girl who is my whole world and its just me and her ❤️ I wouldn't change a thing.
I've lost a lot of trust in the opposite sex due to past experience and of course I know this is personal to me and nothing to do with the other gender (something that I am working on).
I've started to wonder if I was ever even straight to begin with as the idea of sex has always been like "eating your vegetables" something you have to do in order to not be alone. In the past I haven't really ever been given much of a choice. Although I also find it incredibly painful due to medical issues and past.
When I've heard people's coming out stories they often say "I always knew" and that they were born this way. I respect and love this but its making me confused about how I feel?
I have only ever looked at men this way and am attracted to them initially but after this point I'm not so sure? Women are so beautiful and sensual to me that I feel I would be more sexually attracted to them but this thought had only just occurred to me in the last few months.
Is it possible that I am a lesbian? Bisexual? Or other? Or am I just so hurt from my past that I'm creating some sort of trauma response?
I have no interest in being in any kind or relationship at the moment as my focus is on my baby and finding out who I am and will be for the foreseeable future.
Does anyone out there related to any of this or can any personal experiences enlighten me? Did you always know?
Is there a way I can find out without putting myself out into the world (something I'm not nearly ready to do).
I've never been with a woman. I love and admire the entire LGBTQ+ community and would never be ashamed of my sexuality and I feel my friends and family would be very supportive of any choices I make in this regard (with a few exceptions of course). But I don't think that there's any shame or guilt holding me back here?
Right now it feels like im trying to think through the thickest fog and theres no clear path.
Maybe I'm just broken.
