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Post by c1986 on Aug 11, 2022 11:48:12 GMT
Hi all,
A little about me; I’m 35, m, based in the UK. I am married to a woman and we have a son (5). We’ve been married 9 years, together 15. In the last 2/3 years I opened up to her and said I was bisexual-however over the last 12 months I really feel like I’m gay.
I am however very confused. I know I love her and my life as it is. There is and has been a growing desire/thoughts about other men & guys. I’m finding it incredibly hard not to act on it and want to.
I had always thought I couldn’t romantically be involved with a man but I’ve never tried so I don’t actually know. What I do know is that my sexual thoughts are pretty much about men/same sex. I really feel I’m struggling to accept who I am out of fear and being scared of the unknown.
I’ve been very open with my wife and we’re going through counselling. This has been such a difficult conversation for me and her and I don’t underestimate the impact it has had on her. Are there other men on who have been in this situation and can offer some advice about how they worked it through and what they ended up deciding.
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Post by stolz on Aug 16, 2022 19:31:45 GMT
Hi c1986,
Thanks for posting on the forum and for sharing - it sounds like you've been through a lot regarding this. You've mentioned about opening up the conversations with your wife and it's good that you've kept that line of communication going, as well as having the counselling together as you've mentioned.
Struggling with our identities is sadly something that happens very frequently across the LGBTQ+ community. It sounds like you've given this some thought. You've mentioned about having counselling with your wife but have you accessed counselling or support for just yourself? I think it would be a good way to talk freely about your feelings and to process them. Here are some suggestions for support that might be helpful:
Switchboard - The UK's oldest LGBTQ+ helpline. It's staffed by queer volunteers who will gladly talk to you about your situation, and may be able to help direct you to further support. You can call them 10am - 10pm on 0300 330 0630, or webchat here: switchboard.lgbt/ or email them chris@switchboard.lgbt.
ELOP - If you'd like to talk to a licensed therapist about your sexuality then ELOP has a great online offering of LGBTQ+ psychotherapists who might be able to help you work through your feelings. Email info@elop.org
Wishing you well and do let us know how you get on.
S
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