coda
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Post by coda on Sept 6, 2022 15:55:54 GMT
hey group up until recently I was staunch in the fact that I was only attracted to women, but I've been feeling more and more attracted to some men I meet than I've ever felt before. I'm non binary so gender to me is not a defining line but I find myself more and more attracted to my male housemate who is also one of my best friends. the hardest part of this is that I've been in a loving relationship with my fiance for almost 8 years. and I love her. I don't not love her and I'm not not attracted to her. If I could have it my way I would date both if them. I think I'm polyamorous and pansexual but I'm 27 and have been out as a lesbian for almost 10 years and I'm very much struggling with coming to terms with this identity change. let alone being polyamorous when my fiance is strictly monogamous. my fiance is incredibly supportive of me but when I've mentioned polyamory in the past she hasn't been super positive about it, having been cheated on many times she finds it hard to tell the difference. does anyone have any advice for broaching this topic with a loved one? or re coming out later in queer life?
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Post by avocado on Sept 8, 2022 10:26:27 GMT
Hi Coda Thanks for asking us, it can be scary to put yourself you there like this. I'm going to address each point you discuss individually. - It's really common for sexuality to change throughout our lives, there is even some evidence it can change with transition (HERE). I am also non-binary and after being out for about 10 years as bi/pan I realised the opposite to you, I have very little interest in men. I have also watched queer friends become more/less attracted to certain genders throughout the years of knowing them. You might also like reading THIS.
- It can be awkward and overwhelming to be attracted to someone you are close to. For the time being I would advise on preserving your friendship while you work out what you want to do.
- You could discuss polyamory with your fiance, but if you think she has already expressed a 'no' she could feel like you are pushing the topic. If you feel comfortable you could explain you feel more attracted to men and that polyamory is feeling like part of your identity. This does not mean you have to be a polyamorous couple or that you have to break up. It's just beginning a conversation and seeing where it goes.
If you want to talk this through with someone I recommend calling Switchboard. I hope you work this out, I think the key to this is communicating with the people important to you, and trusting them to listen.
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