ik its cringe but heres more rambling about him cuz yea
Mar 9, 2023 16:25:51 GMT
Post by rustydusty on Mar 9, 2023 16:25:51 GMT
i have awful handwriting and hate journals so imma just start putting all my ramble sessions on here [also cuz im curious if anyone would respond to it haha]
jkjksjkdhkjdkjsdf seriously hes so awesome like bruh he's better than finding a fridge full of free monster drinks of EVERY FLAVOR [and thats like huge cuz im hopelessly addicted to monster and i flip tf out if i see one i havent tried yet] whenever im around him its like all the sad and all the dysphoria and whatever my parents did to me that day it just all disappears and all thats left is love and happy and general warm fuzzy feelings. hes obv different because nobody else ever made me this happy and comfy with being myself. i almost got into a relationship while me and him were apart because i was so upset with myself and hated being alone but even just imagining being with someone else felt gross and wrong and made me wanna cry. i kinda ghosted the other person and i feel bad but he wasnt even a good friend, much less anything else. when things got better with me and him [lets just call him Jay] everything else got better too. i finally didnt feel like there was a big gaping hole in my chest, i stopped hating myself for being trans, and i had a reason to become a better person. i can only rlly see him at school but its so much better than nothing. and hopefully we can start hanging out outside of school if my parents get nicer lol. i would take anything i possibly can because oml i missed him so much and can never get enough of him. i was never able to imagine any sort of future with anyone, but i can see it with him. i would go anywhere with him. ive daydreamed about us sharing an apartment and having a cat [cuz we both love cats] and being able to just do whatever we wanted. we could stay up all night watching tv and cuddling and it would be so awesome. and he said he would help me with my T shots cuz im scared of needles sometimes. hes just so amazing and i cant believe he's real, at this point i think hes a figment of my imagination cuz it seems too good to be true. im so happy that hes in my life. im happy he came into it in the first place and im so happy that he's giving me another chance after i screwed up and left.
and omllll hes so pretty and cute and hot and stunning and handsome and literally every word in all the languages that mean that he looks amazing and perfect. his hair is so fluffy and its the color of amber and sunsets, i love playing with it cuz its like suuper soft. hes kinda self conscious abt his haircut rn but i think it looks cute
he has super cute freckles too and rlly soft skin. oh and hes like the perfect height for hugs and kisses cuz hes like a bit taller than me but not too tall, its just a perfect height idk. hes rlly strong too and gives rlly good hugs and back rubs and other stuff too. but yea thats my rambling, he wasnt here this morning but i hope ill see him at lunch cuz aughgh i miss himm <3
jkjksjkdhkjdkjsdf seriously hes so awesome like bruh he's better than finding a fridge full of free monster drinks of EVERY FLAVOR [and thats like huge cuz im hopelessly addicted to monster and i flip tf out if i see one i havent tried yet] whenever im around him its like all the sad and all the dysphoria and whatever my parents did to me that day it just all disappears and all thats left is love and happy and general warm fuzzy feelings. hes obv different because nobody else ever made me this happy and comfy with being myself. i almost got into a relationship while me and him were apart because i was so upset with myself and hated being alone but even just imagining being with someone else felt gross and wrong and made me wanna cry. i kinda ghosted the other person and i feel bad but he wasnt even a good friend, much less anything else. when things got better with me and him [lets just call him Jay] everything else got better too. i finally didnt feel like there was a big gaping hole in my chest, i stopped hating myself for being trans, and i had a reason to become a better person. i can only rlly see him at school but its so much better than nothing. and hopefully we can start hanging out outside of school if my parents get nicer lol. i would take anything i possibly can because oml i missed him so much and can never get enough of him. i was never able to imagine any sort of future with anyone, but i can see it with him. i would go anywhere with him. ive daydreamed about us sharing an apartment and having a cat [cuz we both love cats] and being able to just do whatever we wanted. we could stay up all night watching tv and cuddling and it would be so awesome. and he said he would help me with my T shots cuz im scared of needles sometimes. hes just so amazing and i cant believe he's real, at this point i think hes a figment of my imagination cuz it seems too good to be true. im so happy that hes in my life. im happy he came into it in the first place and im so happy that he's giving me another chance after i screwed up and left.
and omllll hes so pretty and cute and hot and stunning and handsome and literally every word in all the languages that mean that he looks amazing and perfect. his hair is so fluffy and its the color of amber and sunsets, i love playing with it cuz its like suuper soft. hes kinda self conscious abt his haircut rn but i think it looks cute
he has super cute freckles too and rlly soft skin. oh and hes like the perfect height for hugs and kisses cuz hes like a bit taller than me but not too tall, its just a perfect height idk. hes rlly strong too and gives rlly good hugs and back rubs and other stuff too. but yea thats my rambling, he wasnt here this morning but i hope ill see him at lunch cuz aughgh i miss himm <3 
