Post by vikki on Mar 31, 2023 21:19:21 GMT
I grew up with LGBT not really being a thing. If it was brought up, it would be negative/used as an insult.
I ended up dating and remaining with my childhood friend. We were together 18years. I am not be a very social person so don't know many people.
I met a lady in Nov 21 and I felt a vibe with her I couldn't explain. I saw her due to her job and had the impression that she liked me.
I was always disappointed that she would not be able to remain in contact due to her job role.
Plus I was with my male partner... So nothing was going to happen.
Last summer I couldn't resist communicating with her via her work email. She never shut me down and responded with updates.
By Christmas last year I was smitten with her and emailed her compliments.
She was off over Xmas due to a operation. Looking back I had such a massive crush. So many signs I didn't realise I did. I missed her like crazy. She contacted me for an update... I explained the situation, how I didn't want to be with my male partner any longer for various reasons and told her I missed her too.
She invited me to coffee... It's not usual for her job. We spoke about more personal things like a date... 🤔
She was different, more relaxed and not how she was while doing her job role. I really wanted to hug her but couldn't. I have been compelled to touch her but I can't. She touched my arm once.
I made her a gift and said it was up to her of she wanted to accept it as her job role could prevent this.
She accepted it. It was a cushion with a teddy hugging a heart. I asked her for a hug and she agreed. It was nice. She then went in for a second hug soon after.
I emailed her an update and how I have separated from my male partner etc. I asked her to stay on touch as she has my number.
She replied saying she couldn't stay in touch due to her job. But if we bumped into each other she would say hi, chat.
I still like her... Everyone I have mentioned her to says to forget her.
Is it just her...?
How do you know? How do I know it wasn't a phase?
Do you think she was messing with me? Should I wait and bump into her or let her go?