Infatuation with a handsome angel
Sept 29, 2019 16:27:35 GMT
Post by freedom2be on Sept 29, 2019 16:27:35 GMT
Hello,
I want to share my story here. This past winter I met a fellow from a dating app aimed at a particular linguistic group. He is much younger than me. But it seemed we did not care. Meeting after meeting it seems we formed a quite a fresh mature/ younger male to male bond...It was a friendship which was giving me such pleasure...we never touched apart from the goodbye hugs to end our meetings...And I could not see it but after some whatsapp messages in which we have complemented each other in terms of looks, an inner feeling struck to me: 'Is he the one?' It sounded a bit outrageous given the age difference but my thoughts of him in an idealised way grew and grew...and we kept with the meetings and I was shy to declare my love for him fearing rejection of course. He gave me his email address and apparently he only had one from an international organisation he volunteers for...And I think I had sort of clumsy words when I emailed him but I thought I must tell him because it would not be honest if I don't. He replied back with something a bit in the tone of what an 'administrator' here would say (sorry no major pun...apologies in advance) 'I enjoy listening to people' he replied back...But just this morning we also had another whatsapp chat session. We did not meet but I was wondering if he slept or not and he said this time: 'Sorry I think you need to mature to be properly independent'...We use Spanish when we communicate because it is our language and in one of the voice messages he also verbally said something equivalent sort of to 'Goodbye, let life be good to you...'. I have not felt so sad in a really long time. And it was shocking that such a cordial and sensible guy that he had been up to now he could now say cruel things precisely when I am not even understanding how fond I became of him. It just happened today. And I am in shock. I think I am somehow independent... independent enough...I work for a living...It is not exactly that I enjoy high abundance but I would say I am independent. And with the phone almost dying in battery, I tried to ring him while he was saying all this harsh things out of nowwhere. I am not sure if I did or said something clumsy but the way I felt that friendship gave me such joy even if we were only friends...it was a big shock he finished me with issues of social status. We are from different countries...Many many miles apart but how come when he appeared like such a gentleman all this time he had to say what he said and how much it has hurt my feeling that all the sudden he had made me feel like just nothing...This is my little story. This is what is making me ache at this moment. Thank you for reading people. I hope you are well.
I want to share my story here. This past winter I met a fellow from a dating app aimed at a particular linguistic group. He is much younger than me. But it seemed we did not care. Meeting after meeting it seems we formed a quite a fresh mature/ younger male to male bond...It was a friendship which was giving me such pleasure...we never touched apart from the goodbye hugs to end our meetings...And I could not see it but after some whatsapp messages in which we have complemented each other in terms of looks, an inner feeling struck to me: 'Is he the one?' It sounded a bit outrageous given the age difference but my thoughts of him in an idealised way grew and grew...and we kept with the meetings and I was shy to declare my love for him fearing rejection of course. He gave me his email address and apparently he only had one from an international organisation he volunteers for...And I think I had sort of clumsy words when I emailed him but I thought I must tell him because it would not be honest if I don't. He replied back with something a bit in the tone of what an 'administrator' here would say (sorry no major pun...apologies in advance) 'I enjoy listening to people' he replied back...But just this morning we also had another whatsapp chat session. We did not meet but I was wondering if he slept or not and he said this time: 'Sorry I think you need to mature to be properly independent'...We use Spanish when we communicate because it is our language and in one of the voice messages he also verbally said something equivalent sort of to 'Goodbye, let life be good to you...'. I have not felt so sad in a really long time. And it was shocking that such a cordial and sensible guy that he had been up to now he could now say cruel things precisely when I am not even understanding how fond I became of him. It just happened today. And I am in shock. I think I am somehow independent... independent enough...I work for a living...It is not exactly that I enjoy high abundance but I would say I am independent. And with the phone almost dying in battery, I tried to ring him while he was saying all this harsh things out of nowwhere. I am not sure if I did or said something clumsy but the way I felt that friendship gave me such joy even if we were only friends...it was a big shock he finished me with issues of social status. We are from different countries...Many many miles apart but how come when he appeared like such a gentleman all this time he had to say what he said and how much it has hurt my feeling that all the sudden he had made me feel like just nothing...This is my little story. This is what is making me ache at this moment. Thank you for reading people. I hope you are well.
