Coming out in a week as a hijabi
Jun 2, 2023 17:02:38 GMT
Post by evechanson on Jun 2, 2023 17:02:38 GMT
Hey, this is my very first time finding an LGBT+ forum. It's taken me years of denial to get here. I started feeling things since 11 and I'm 21 now. So its been about 10 years of experimenting, enjoying it, then feeling guilty and convincing myself that these thoughts are thoughts that everyone gets and that I'm just making myself this way by doing things with girls. (I'm a girl myself btw). Its only now, since I found myself in love that I cannot deny it. Ive been with my girlfriend for 1 year and 2 months almost and she has met my parents, but only as my flatmate and friend. I feel bad for my mum, as she has been around my gf without knowing who she really is to me, but i was scared to tell her then and considering she is my roommate, there was no way of my family not meeting her as they helped me move my things into the flat and come round to visit me.
My mum converted to islam when I was 7/8 years, so this is probally going to be the biggest hurdle to her. She normally is very accepting and gives unconditional love but she does love islam, and many muslims belive homosexuality is wrong. Ill be telling her in person soon, but will send a preparation text either today or tomorrow. Im scared guys, my heart is going to explode. I know I wont be able to stop crying when I tell her because I even struggle to say the words 'I'm gay' when I've come out to friends in the past. Most friends have been accepting but I lost a friend aswell. She was my best friend. Do you guys have any advise, I'm losing it, but I can't not tell my mum any longer, I love her too much and I feel this secret puts distance between us.
My mum converted to islam when I was 7/8 years, so this is probally going to be the biggest hurdle to her. She normally is very accepting and gives unconditional love but she does love islam, and many muslims belive homosexuality is wrong. Ill be telling her in person soon, but will send a preparation text either today or tomorrow. Im scared guys, my heart is going to explode. I know I wont be able to stop crying when I tell her because I even struggle to say the words 'I'm gay' when I've come out to friends in the past. Most friends have been accepting but I lost a friend aswell. She was my best friend. Do you guys have any advise, I'm losing it, but I can't not tell my mum any longer, I love her too much and I feel this secret puts distance between us.
