New and looking for some advice

Hello! This isn’t going to be much help I’m afraid, but I saw you on another forum in passing (before immediately abandoning that forum because/) and I was disgusted by how the other users talked to you. I just wanted to make sure you were doing better now and I was hoping that you managed to get the support you needed. I am happy to help you learn more about your identity, but I am at the very beginning of my journey and I am extremely under qualified/under experienced. Have you tried feeling out the term gender fluid? Personally for my friend who identifies as gender fluid there are some days where on some days she feels more female and on other days he feels more male, but there are lots of people who feel differently on some days they identify as she, on some they identify as them, etc. You have probably explored this and mostly discovered who you are (I just needed to feel helpful). Also I really hope all the toxicity is out of your life and you are focusing on what YOU need and want. Good luck